Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Regaining Strength

For three years I have struggled physically with autoimmune diseases. I am finally beginning to feel better.  Strength is returning. I'm off medications.  Now I need to rebuild my body. I begin physiotherapy today and must refocus on my diet. You may have noticed that it's been difficult for me to write.  My mind has been foggy from medications, my body has been plagued with pain and fatigue. I'm very grateful for my family loving and caring for me. I'm grateful for my friends who have stood by me, those who visited and messaged me.  Having a chronic illness was a new and very challenging journey for me.  My main goal these past three years was to keep my eyes fixed on Jesus as the author and perfecter of my faith. 

Now I hope to write again and to learn and dig back into the word of God.  
I love the word of God.  I love how my spirit agrees with God's Spirit as I read the word of God.  He speaks to me. He confirms His love, His passion, His supply.  He sustains me through His word.

I started this blog because I had struggled with sensing God's presence and walking in His power.  As I talked with a dear friend, I realized that I had not fully understood the gospel, the actual reality of what the death and resurrection of Jesus means. I had given my life to Jesus years before and God dramatically changed my life. I was saved, but as time went on my life began to lack power.  Joy waned.  And I had a hard time figuring out how to return to what I had known as a new believer. Somewhere along the way, I think I began to work for what I cannot work for.  To strive when striving accomplished nothing.   I needed to learn the secret of abiding in Christ.  

My journey began with focusing on the book of Galatians, led to Ephesians, all through Corinthians, the book of John, 1 John and then I settled in Romans for a long time. The truth of God's amazing salvation and the abundance He gives us in Christ. And now I am back in Ephesians and each line speaks to me.  It sometimes helps  me to personalize the Bible. This is a personalization of Ephesians 2.


 I was dead in my transgressions and sins.  I had lived in them, following the age of this world, the ruler of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the disobedient, who was at work in me.  All of us once lived among the disobedient in the desires of our flesh, following the wishes of the flesh and the impulses. I was by nature a child of wrath, as were we all.  But God, who is rich in mercy, because of the great love He has for me (for us), even when I was dead in my transgressions, brought me to life with Christ (by grace I have been saved), and raised me up with Him, and seated me with Him in the heavens in Christ Jesus.  For by grace, I have been saved through faith, and this is not from me, it is the gift of God;  it is not from anything I did, any works of my own, so that I cannot boast in myself.  For I am His handiwork, created in Christ Jesus for the good works God prepared in advance that I should walk in them.

Before giving our lives to Jesus, we were dead.  Spiritually dead.  Our bodies were alive, but the core of who we were was dead, separated from the life-giving God.  When we surrendered to Jesus in faith, asking Him to forgive our sin and take it away, God brought us to life with Christ and seated us with Christ in the heavenly realm in Him.  What an amazing reality this is.  This is our home. In Christ. Where there is no sin.  In Christ. Where there is ever lasting joy. Where there is ever lasting peace.  In Christ. Forgiven and made new...forever.  Why?  Because of God's great mercy. Because of His love for us.  Because of His grace. Not treating us as our sin deserves.  This salvation is a gift of God. It is nothing we can earn. We could never be good enough or do enough good deeds to attain this salvation. Only through the blood of Jesus who paid the price for our sin. Only with Him. Only in Him. By grace.  

Thank you God for your great love toward us.  Help this love to sink in. Help us to feel it and to know it's true. To experience life with you in the heavenly realm while we live out this life right where you have placed us.


Ephesians 2
You were dead in your transgressions and sins in which you once lived following the age of this world, following the ruler of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the disobedient.All of us once lived among them in the desires of our flesh, following the wishes of the flesh and the impulses, and we were by nature children of wrath, like the rest. But God, who is rich in mercy, because of the great love he had for us, even when we were dead in our transgressions, brought us to life with Christ[e] (by grace you have been saved), raised us up with him, and seated us with him in the heavens in Christ Jesus, that in the ages to come he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus.For by grace you have been saved through faith, and this is not from you; it is the gift of God; it is not from works, so no one may boast. 10 For we are his handiwork, created in Christ Jesus for the good works that God has prepared in advance, that we should live in them.

2 comments:

  1. beautiful words, Nancy...journey through pain always teaches us so much about abiding and clinging to the One who gave it all. The fellowship of sharing His sufferings! Love from the East! <3

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    1. Thanks so much for your encouragement to me, Pam! :) Sorry for such a delayed response!! I hope you are doing well!

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