I have been on a journey of knowing God. I love God. He has transformed my life. When I surrendered my life to Jesus, years ago, I was dramatically changed. I hungered for God. Over time though, I began to lose the sense of peace and joy that I had at the beginning. People would tell me that it was normal. My heart cried within me, saying, "I know there is something more that I am not comprehending." I cried out to God to make my heart clean, because I didn't feel clean. I cried for Him to restore my relationship with Him to what it was. He never seemed to answer me.
Eventually I gave up hope. The verses in the Bible that promised abundance and joy seemed to apply only to some, but not to me. I couldn't figure out how to get that joy again. I was despairing.
I don't know if anyone else has ever felt that way. I'm writing to say that God has revealed the answer to me. I have joy and peace today, overflowing through me; an assurance of His presence and pleasure. I'm writing to give praise to God and to process this journey I am on to know Him. Perhaps God might use these words as an encouragement to someone also....